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Jul. 12th, 2009 @ 11:55 pm Trees lined with Buildings
Current Mood: creeped out!
Jamie just creeped me out! He's not feeling well and he said he was hallucinating that he thought I was looking at him but I'm facing the other wall! UGH! SICK! I got goosebumps!

Last night I was at Folk Fest with my sister and Jared. It was a lot of fun! The only thing that ruined it was bumping into my ex when it was the last thing I wanted to do. I am completely disconnected from him and we don't have a friendship and I don't want him to come up to me.

It was bad, we got in a passive-aggressive fight (but we truly meant what we said) and then I just walked away. It was cold and unfriendly and I wished he knew better than to come running up to me like we're pals (since he did it the week before and got much of the same reaction)...cuz we aren't! It was frustrating and it bothered me all afternoon. Especially since Jamie came up...it was awkward but I had to rub it in his face that I always had Jamie, always wanted Jamie and I am very happy with only Jamie, and that basically his (Dan) and my relationship was superficial. It's sad though because I thought me and Dan would have ended better than that. I never disliked him until recently and I'm happy he's leaving I guess because there's nothing there, not even friendship anymore.

Anyway other than that Folk Fest was good! I wished Jamie was there and I got hit on in front of my sister which is embarrassing! This tall skinny black guy laying in the grass started talking to me so I stopped and then he started speaking in french and motioning me to lay with him. As I started to leave he called after me saying he wanted to teach me real french later that night. Awkward.




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Jul. 10th, 2009 @ 11:55 pm Susurrant
Current Mood: cranky
Today was a pretty bad day.

- James cried and whined so much when he wasn't napping and I wanted to pull my hair out! 
- Woke up to a flat tire as I was heading out to visit a friend
- Had to cancel plans because we had to deal with the car and we still have to get the tire fixed
- The ferrets knocked over two cups and got water and juice all over Jamies expensive computer and keyboard we got the other month
- My weekend shifts were canceled and we REALLY needed that money

Average lifespan of a tidy apartment is 2 days. The place looks like hell again. I absolutely hate that aparment! 
It doesn't seem that bad when reading it but my fuse was short today and the day dragged on way too long with too many snags. I've had a headache all day.
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Jul. 4th, 2009 @ 07:00 am Baby spam
James is 3 months and 3 weeks old today! 


( Lots more this way! )
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Jul. 4th, 2009 @ 06:36 am Man Fire
Current Mood: cheerful
I just went through my old LJ and it was a very strange read. It was from 2006 until 2007 and so many problems from then seem to have gotten worse in the later years. I feel we should be through this shit but we aren't and it scares me. That being said things were so different then even if the same problems were there. It was when Dan and I split and Jamie was spending a ton of money on me.

I think it was good to read it. Jamie has been through hell to keep me more than once and I really need to stop forgetting that. I really need a good kick in the ass and to stop feeling sorry for myself. Anyway I really love Jamie so much and yes our past has extremely painful parts to it but after the reading I just did I can't believe I can so easily shrug off the great times we had and his building dedication to me over years. I am extremely lucky to have him. He's sexy, he's an amazing lover, we have a child together and he loves me! Sean just told me today how lucky I was to have Jamie and he's right!

Canada Day was fun with Jamie and James. We walked to the Forks to see fireworks and I couldn't believe it but James slept through everything. The fireworks, the noise, people bumping into the stroller....he just couldn't be bothered to wake up! I loved the walk home with Jamie the best.

Yesterday I went to the Forks twice! Once with Bradley in the morning and we had the most amazing milkshakes! After work I went again with Sean and I had a really messy veggie burger. Dan saw me and I reacted badly at first. I was almost offended that he came up to me at all after not talking to me the whole time he's been back since Thunder Bay. I think he regretted coming up to me and Sean but whatever. I wished Sandy and happy birthday and I was happy to see her. Things changed so much two years ago and I guess that friendship got unintentionally frozen in time.

Sean and I watched fire dancing for a while and then took off for a walk and the conversation was so silly last night. We did sit by the river and watched several fish come and eat bugs from the surface. It was neat! Not that we could really tell they were fish since it was late and dark. We mostly heard the fish break the surface and assumed they were fish. Maybe it was some magical sea creature.

I also took this today because it was so sparkly! You can even see how the center diamond 'floats' above the band in this picture if you know what to look for! I love this ring and how it sparkles in the sun!

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Jul. 1st, 2009 @ 01:36 am Ferret Frenzy
Current Mood: aggravated
My mom found a wedding dress she thinks I'll really love and she wants me to go try it on and whatever else there is to it about finding a dress. It's so early for that though, we're not getting married until Oct 2010 so....a long ways off still! 

I got home to a huge fucking mess the ferrets made in the kitchen. I don't know how they got up but they must have climbed onto the counter. They knocked over an open 2L thing of pop, a rice cooker half full of rice, there's plastic bags everywhere and cutlery and knives strewn across the floor as if the best thing in the world was getting a giant fucking piece of metal go through your foot.

I am not impressed. They just lost their out of room privileges when no one is home motherfuckers.
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