Last night was definitely alive! I had so much fun and screamed all night.
Tonight will be a late night up again, this time with Sean. We'll have talks in cold back alleys about life and love and mysteries. We'll get angry over animal rights and the cards life and death deal out. We'll wish we were in a city with a stronger movement.
I miss my lover and I miss my son. At the same time it's nice to have this time to be my own person again. Maybe I can find parts of who I was and put myself back together again. Wouldn't it be nice...to see myself again.
I'm on the phone with Jamie right now and James is laughing in the back!
Edit:Sean got called into work so I saw Tab instead. We went for a walk and snuggled together like we did when we were kids and watched movies. It was lovely! That girl I really love. She's like the female version of Bradley to me. Both of them close friends my whole life, years and years of stories with them. They're two of the few constants I have and rely on.
I miss Jamie so much. I almost cried on the phone listening to James (he was trying to make words).
I want to bury my face in Jamies neck and I can't shake the feeling of sleeping alone tonight. I want him back. I've never been alone this long in my whole life. I've always had friends or family with me, this is so new. It's just me and my book and the long night.